Dear Monks, I need your help. Ive been in a relationship with my man for many years and something terrible happened for which i cannot get myself through.
He took me to the beach my favorite place to be. Our night was going so perfect. We had dinner and champagne out on the terrace overlooking the ocean waves as the sunset. The twinkling lights wrapped palm trees and I had a feeling what was about to happen. The night was moonless, we walked down to the sand almost like blindfolded.
He started to tell me how much he loved me he fell to his knees on the sand. I could barely remain standing myself as we were both in tears this moment finally came.
We are on our knees crying in the dark sand and he ask me the question, he says, "I love you, I can't live without you, will you marry me?"
I said, "Yes, If you will pray with me first?"
You see, when we first met on match, his profile said that he was "spiritual" but then later he tells me he doesn't believe in God or anything at all. I thought he loved me enough, he would at least pretend or try to pray with me...but he didn't!
He said "NO. I don't believe in God."
I started crying more, "No, you won't pray with me right now? Then I won't marry you!!!" And I pushed his hands away before the ring ever made it to my finger. The ring fell out of his hand into the darkness of the sand.
He starts freaking out about the ring crawling all over the dirt screaming, "I have to find that ring, do you know how much that ring cost?!!!"
I didn't even care about that stupid ring at that point. He made me stay there and then he comes back out with two colanders and we spent until 3 am sifting the sand. But as the tide came in...we both realized the ring was gone forever.
Forever, that is what I wanted. Eternity. But he doesn't believe in eternity or forever. I don't want to marry someone who just wants this short life, the here and now. I wanted forever.
I woke up the next morning and he was gone again. Every time we have a fight he just leaves without a note or text or anything. It seems like at the end of our lifetimes, that is how he would leave me. He will never give me forever.
My heart is broken and I don't know what to do from here.
What would you do, if it happened to you?